Two and half weeks ago. We got our final assignment for phase #1. (there are 4 phases in all) For the assignment there were 10 procedures which related to the previous two months of classes. (I won't bore you with the details) We had to have it done Friday the ninth at 8.45 am ready to show in front of the whole school (everybody). Really rather intimidating. HOLD THIS THOUGHT BECAUSE I AM GOING TO RABBIT TRAIL FOR A Minute................
Have you ever felt naked, exposed and vulnerable Well, when ever I show my work this is how I feel. OUT THERE!!!! Here I aM!!!!! I am ALMOST screaming inside with teNSion. Because I really really want you to see what I have been working on and how I have been seeing. But do I really want you to see what I am seeing??? Because then you can see what is happening inside me. And I doN"t KNOw if i want YoU there. Because I COULD bE HuRt!!! I Don'T likE BEING hurt. IT Hurts OK!!!!! There is also a big DANGER, DANGER, DANGER, here. The tEnsioN in this vulnerability, can stifle, cripple and even kill creativity. Oh the risk. Oh the TEnSioN. CAn i? WIll i? Do i EVEn wanT to boTheR??? Oh the BATTLe of being a creative. MayBE, Just MAYbE this whOLe scenario wiLL cauSe moRE creaTivitY. HHHMMMM!!!
So yesterday, (Friday the ninth), there we all sat. In the Auditorium with each other. Staff. Students. Photographers. Having battled through the previous paragraph, knowingly or not, ready to be inspired by our work. Which we all were. And the experience was as you would expect. Wonderful! Thought provoking! Dangerous! Beautiful! Scary! Sensual! Tense! Happy!
So as you can see I have a little preoccupied with this whole experience. It is sometimes very difficult for me to communicate what is happening on the inside in a creative sense. I hope this post will do that. To the right is a self portrait that we had to do for the assignment.
Love you all
Peter
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